Life can be unpredictable, growing up you have an idea of what you thought things would be like when reaching a certain age, just when you thought you getting an orange you get a grape fruit with a sweet and sour taste.
One thing that I could consider as an enemy is failure to progress in life while others do well; I fear that if I were to fail and not succeed I’m going to crumble.
It is hard because you do not even know which direction to take because all that you thinking is what you need to make things work so that you can reach the top of the ladder.
Each day you wake up and think why do I not have this striving persona in me, what do I keep doing wrong and why is it that I do not feel the urgency now that I am in my twenties. It becomes more difficult when you not getting any support from your close family and all you getting is criticism about not getting far in life, it builds this fear that you might not reach the intended goals and remain stagnant, life is hard out there and it is nothing never as one has predicted.
I always think to myself that what will happen if I fail in what I am doing because I am following my required interest but not what would make me happy, I fear that I will not find what sparks my life career wise, I do not even know where to start but I do know that there is something inside that strives for success.
The biggest enemy could be myself, I also fail to believe in myself because I do not push myself to the limit to get what I want, as much as there is something within me that wants success there is also something in me that fears that I might fail, regret and have what ifs which are boggling my mind.
Life requires you to embrace the possibilities of failure as we take lessons of not repeating the same mistakes.
Kamogelo Digashu
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